Friday 9 December 2011

Damn it!

Imagine a situation where someone lacks something. Something which you have, but the situation calls/relations arent's right/his pride is too big so you can't help. You're helpless and definitely not helpful.

Which makes you angry, so you tell yourself out loud "Well it's not my fucking fault!" which... technically, isn't. But that's still not helpful and you know you're only telling yourself that in a desperate attempt to not feel as bad. And this invalidates the thought: "reality" doesn't matter; it doesn't matter whete the "truth" lies, whether technically it is or not your fault. The fact your psyche yells out that phrase is a sign you want to do more. You're not contended with the way things are.

So you just go back to a "Damn it!". And anger. Built up inside. 
Building up.
Inside.